And maybe you know that next month there will be a similar story, yet vastly different too. Andy and I will travel to the Middle East for a medical missions trip. It's his third time there and my first. Last year when he returned from his second trip, he asked me to come with him on the next one. I said yes. I wanted to meet his friends, see the country he'd fallen in love with, taste the food he raved about, and serve the people his heart broke for. It was my time, finally. Every other time had been the wrong time, but I knew this time I was ready and the kids would be okay.
And then God threw us the Ethiopia curveball. My heart was torn at first. Two trips in less than five months? What will people say? Would they judge me for leaving my children that much? Am I a bad mom for leaving them again?
"And let us run with endurance the race marked out for us." Hebrews 12:1
Those words leapt off the page when I read them a few weeks ago. This is the race marked out for me. I'm sure of it. And though others may not agree, or may question, I pray my eyes stay on the course, focused on the finish, looking to the One who marked my race.
"We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith." Hebrews 12:2
I've applied this verse to so many things in my life lately. I have a tendency to look at others' races and decide theirs look better than mine. It appears easier over there, and I want to jump over to their lane. Or maybe give up, or at least slow down. I compare and wish and and covet. I feel inadequate. I doubt and fear and wonder if I'm even in the right race.
My race looks so different than yours, but I'm learning that's okay, and in fact that's the way God designed it. He's reminding me to stay on course, keep looking straight at Him, and keep running no matter what, just keep running. And in the end -- the only thing that matters -- is that He is the end. He's there waiting for me, ready to congratulate me, hug me, and say, "Well done." And in the end, His opinion will be the one that counts.
Here's a picture of our team from Maryland, and we'll join up with another team once we get there.
Kate, Jack, Lisa, Carla, me, Andy |
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